Never Say Never

All this time, I've thought that I would be this one way because I thought I saw everything in black and white...  Sometimes, it's not a matter of what is right or what is wrong--it's simply a matter of what works for you.  

I've realized that feelings, thoughts, and people change all the time.  So, you never know when you might do something that you once vowed that you'd never do.  And that's okay as long as you're following your morals and you're not hurting anyone.  Isn't it a relief to know that we can change?  It can be scary too because the change doesn't always imply for the better, but that is why we always aim really high so that no matter what, we will be better than yesterday.

My current Favorite Song:

"…I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been…”

Not Yet Over You

I don't want to cry over you anymore, but these tears...  I can't seem to control these tears streaming down my face.  What's happened to me?  Have I become weak?  I thought I had moved on enough that seeing you again wouldn't affect me this much.  I suppose I fell harder than I thought, and I'm seeing that I'm still refusing to let go.  I'm sure there will be one day I'll look back and laugh at the experience, but today my heart aches at the thought that maybe...  just maybe it didn't have to be this way.  I almost wish you could've just been a jerk until the end.  That way, I wouldn't ever think of looking back.  I guess "good" closures don't really exist because it only prevents the wounds from healing...  I still care about you, but it hurts too much to care.